Mental Screaming

by freQonavitch Saravolatz

Drooling upon myself and I have no more control
The thorazine it calms me down
Your jacket grips me tight within the padded walls
My arms completely have gone numb

A room without a window
The light is artificial
The air of sweat and fecal
Locked up to be a side show

Dehumanize, Agony Cry
My mental screaming

I hear the people talking in their pretty gowns
The echo comes from down the hall
The little pills your give like sugar to a child
The little red and yellow ones

I take the drugs you give me
Force fed and never willing
Feels like It’s slowly eating
At me but I’m still breathing
My head is light and spinning
It’s kind of hypnotizing
I’m buckling at my knees
And falling deep in a sleep

I’m laying on a cold floor and facing down
Both feet are bound and bleeding, tied to the ground
My lips are dry and chafing, can’t feel my tongue
I’m slowly loosing feeling, like heroine

Electrodes on my temple, a polished copper halo
A sponge between all my teeth, I bite to keep from choking
I puke and start convulsing, Eyes back and all is twitching
Alive but in a coma, I smell the dead aroma

Dehumanize, Agony Cry
My mental screaming

return to despotism